Taking My A Levels

Id finished my first boy/girl sex scene and was relieved it was finally over. I now knew what I could expect in future. It hadn’t been at all as harrowing as id thought and I was left feeling silly for being so nervous in the first place. I thought I’d done well and the director/producer verified this with compliments to that effect.

I was getting changed when Carmen came over and asked if id stay on to do an boy/girl scene with A levels later today as id done so well. Ah, so A levels as people kept referring to was anal. The penny dropped for me. Id been thinking it was strange how they expected so many girls to be so educted for such an unskilled role. Initially I was told this would be with Oliver again but just me and him this time. I was elated with the fact id gotten through the first momentous scene in my career and thought I was on a roll so agreed. I was feeling invincible and on a natural high. I explained it would be my first anal with a guy on film and in all truth would probably be the first real anal sex id experience in my life. Id tried anal sex with an old boyfriend but it was too painful. I don’t think he’d even gotten himself fully inside of me but I knew if I agreed to this now it would be the real deal.

At the time I thought Carmen was genuine about being impressed with me and I was flattered into working again but the reality was that some other girl had most likely let them down and since I was there and fresh meat I would do as a replacement.

The afternoon dragged on and I still hadn’t eaten properly. There was one more scene to shoot after my threesome and then I’d do my anal scene with Oliver. Oliver was obviously bored waiting around too but his idea to fill himself up with cocaine had a knock on effect and soon he made excuses saying he had a cold and felt ill and was going home. What he really meant was he’d over indulged and wouldn’t be able to get a hard on. For a moment I thought that meant the scene was off and if I’d been nervous this morning before my first scene I was about to get the fright of my life. Oliver’s fill in would be the director/producer who was also a famed performer as many producer/director/actors in the industry often were. I suppose it’s a cost effective way to work as they are skilled to do two or three of the jobs required to make a porno, many choosing to do both or all at the same time since the trend for gonzo and amateur porn evolved. Remember I called them one man bands?! But it’s one less pay cheque at the end of the day. It also ensures they get as much work as they want and don’t have to rely on other firms booking them.

My horror came from knowing this particular guys reputation. He was famed for having the biggest penis in British porn at the time. I’d never seen it but id been told numerous times about it. Apparently it was about 14 inches long.

I tried to get myself out of this fast by saying I didn’t think I would be able to take such a big guy my first time. Now I really had reason to be scared and nervous and would do anything to not have to go through with it. I didn’t want to let them down but I also didn’t want to put myself in a position where I could end up hurt. Even in those early days where I still had one hell of alot of learning to do about my body and its limits I knew this was a bad move.

One of the girls who worked closely with this guy, whose name was Big Dave, said she had some numbing cream in her bag and that I could use that. I was supposed to put it on my anus and I wouldn’t be able to feel if it hurt. The down and dangerous side of numbing cream or anything with Benzocaine in it is that you can do yourself alot of mischief if you use it. Nature’s way of telling you you are about to damage yourself is to cause you to feel pain but if you don’t have that warning signal you end up with a torn ass hole in my case.

Big Dave did something then that I will always remember and be grateful for. At the time I thought he was just being an arse but he insisted I didn’t use the cream saying it could make things worse. I was starting to really panic now and felt sick and hysterical. I think he could see this. He promised me that if it hurt we could use the cream but insisted we tried it without first. He calmed me down and said he would take his time and go slow. This is exactly what I needed to hear but unfortunately it would be one of the only times in porn that anyone showed me some respect and compassion. This is why I remember it so vividly. I always described Big Dave as a gentleman after this to anyone who asked about my experiences with him.

A Real Womans Touch

Isn’t being in transsexual or gay porn abit risky???
Well maybe but in my experience with Miss Thing I believe she is one of the safest performers I’ve ever had the good fortune to work with.
She insisted we both go out and get fresh tests a few days before the shoot and because this was above and beyond the norm she offered to pay for it as well. She even got a special test which can detect HIV in a shorter window period as a good will gesture. These tests aren’t typical in the UK. They sound fabulous but the realities are they can throw up false positives.
We sat and discussed health issues for a while before we began the shoot too.

So what’s it like being with a he/she?
I was excited but I didn’t really know why. Miss Thing was, like myself, only human after all.
Actually her professionalism scared me more than anything else. She was very serious about what she did and I think one of the most focused people I’ve ever worked for. Some shoots it’s just like a constant party on set which is fun and some are so over choreographed it’s no fun at all. Her determination and drive were inspiring though. She wasn’t just doing this for a giggle, this was her business.

So we got ready and the cameras started to roll. She confessed she was actually nervous of working with me which I found flattering but helped me relax.
She was more sensual than a guy or any girl’s id ever filmed with before. I suppose she really had to work to prove her femininity where as most girls get in front of a camera and get abit masculine thinking the braver they are the better. With Miss Thing I actually felt like I was with a woman.

Then came the unveiling of the penis and I got butterflies again. It’s not like I’d never seen or handled a cock for heaven’s sake but I think I did what I’m always complaining men do to me. I put her on a magical pedestal. I had imagined her to be some wondrous creature like a unicorn and her cock would have sparks flying out the end of it or something.

The reality was it was just a cock. So I engaged my brain and did what I usually do when presented with such a thing. I was probably a little more tender than usual as I felt that’s the way things were progressing. I’ve since seen some of Miss Things other films and she is used to getting the shit fucked out of her like any true hardcore performer will be so this turned out to be quite a different scene for everyone involved including the paying customers.
I soon forgot Miss Thing was part man and part woman. One minute id have a lovely pair of tits in my face and the next a lovely hard cock. If I shut my eyes it was like being a part of a three some with another man and woman.

We did some anal positions and again she showed her empathy for me as a female performer. Most guys in porn are used to shoving there well endowed cocks up a girl’s tight ass but few know what it feels like to receive one. Miss Thing obviously did and so she teased me to begin with and made sure I was comfy which was a refreshing change.

The only down side I found to the whole thing was at the end. I love all the screwing but to me the cum shot at the end is always the icing on the cake. No pun intended. It’s like a reward for a job well done. Its closure on the event.
Miss Thing went on to explain that the hormones she takes mean she doesn’t produce sperm only seminal fluid which is very clear and not visually ideal for films. Plus there isn’t so much of it. So I was abit disheartened to find that my favourite bit wasn’t going to be a mind blowing finale. I understood why though.

And with that she spunk all over my face!

My maiden voyage

My first stint in porn was in a lesbian role. We call this a girl/girl scene. It also involved having toys inserted up my back passage.

I clearly remember sitting in the office of the guy filming this episode of an adult satellite TV station series before the shoot with him testing out various sizes of butt plugs on me to decide what I could or could not take. He had a pack of three different sized butt plugs and started with the smallest one since id said I had never had any toys up my bum before. I’d had fingers and even a cock on a few occasions but to be honest the cocks didn’t get very far for very long. It was still too uncomfortable for me to enjoy anal with a large cock or on one occasion, one that was attached to someone to drunk and probably stoned to get hard enough to go up me.
It was a pretty pointless exercise and a classic case of exploiting someone new and eager to please. I don’t recall if we did get as far as the biggest plug, possibly due to the two small brandy miniatures that had been given me to help “loosen me up” for this test but apparently I passed and got the part.

It hadn’t particularly upset me that he was taking advantage of the situation and his authority over me. Life is full of people doing just that, it’s just some of us are blind to it. Sometimes you have to humour the abusers to get what and where you want to in life. I’m not really sure who was abusing who. Had he asked me to do something I had really not wanted to do then I would most certainly have walked away. If I wasn’t going to get something that I felt was of equal importance to me out of it then screw u.

So the next day I turned up to the set and met my co star. A cute young girl from Newcastle who was to become my first helping hand in the porn business. I don’t count the three agents I had applied to and joined. They don’t help models and performers. They do their job.
It was to be my first full on lesbian experience. Until then I had only ever kissed a girl my boyfriend had dared me to kiss one night in a bar. I didn’t know the girl and it was no more than a peck on the lips.

Little did I know that today would possibly mould my submissive side for the future.

It was explained to the northern girl who was 4 years junior to me that she was to take the lead and treat me gently as it was my the first time with a girl, first time I was using toys up my butt and indeed my first proper porn shoot. It was a big day for me. I was nervous but excited. I was glad she was told to be in charge. That way I would just copy whatever she did. I didn’t know how girls liked to be kissed or touched by other girls. Was it the same as being touched by a guy or was I supposed to do something else? I was suddenly back at school second guessing everything I was about to do because I’d never done it before. Not only that, I had to do it as if I was a pro. As if I was the most experienced and sexually confident woman in the world. At least when you’re at school if you get it wrong only you and the other person know and you’re forgiven due to your age and inexperience.

It wasn’t how I imagined it to be on set with a massive crew and loads of equipment. It was very much a one man band set up here. I thought that this probably was a one off and that other shoots would be all glossy with catering and makeup artists. I was soon to learn that I was wrong and 60% of shoots would be like this with the director and producer being the same person. Sound, lighting and camera are also taken care of by him. We shoot on one camera with a built in mic so no sound guy was needed. Lighting was 3 sets of Tungsten portable red heads set up on tripods in the corners of the room. Make up and wardrobe was down to me and catering, if you were lucky enough to be catered was a Texaco garage sandwich and bag of plain crisps (no strong flavours if you’re just about to snog someone else).

The cute jordy girl was late in notorious model/diva fashion. I on the other hand turned up on time which left a good few hours for me to be fondled and groped by the director/producer. I was actually starting to get board and pissed off thinking this girl isn’t going to show up, I’m not going to get paid and I’ve taken a day off work for this crap. The fact she was so late hadn’t helped my nerves either.

She showed up in the end just as I was beginning to think all was lost and I won’t forget her in a hurry either.

Why? pt2

So id decided nakedness was not an issue to me and id also decided that if you could see my bush you might as well see what was in between my legs too.
I’ve never been a big tease fan. I’m more a wham bam thank you mame type of girl as you can tell from my approach here.
So then this little list of check boxes went on to say things like G/G, B/G, A levels and DP.
What the...?
I may be quite a modest person when it comes to talking about my brains but I’m certainly not stupid so I worked out that G/G is girl/girl. Basically lesbian scenes. B/G is boy/girl. That’s easy, sex with a guy and A levels is anal. A levels is actually a term coined in the escort world.

I felt like I was in the minority when it came to experimenting and exploring with other girls. Id only ever kissed a girl on the lips, closed mouth as a dare in a pub to impress my boyfriend once. So I decided that G/G was a definite to tick. I saw it as an opportunity to try something new that I already really wanted to but hadn’t had the opportunity to yet. I wasn’t missing out.

B/G. Well I was boyfriend- less and it was against my beliefs to ever make the first move on a guy so my sex life was actually pretty pants to be truthful. This would be a great and easy way to get laid. Laid by hunky men with big cocks too. I’m not fussy though. No honestly, I’m not.

I was a little worried about the anal bit. Although Id mastered the finger up the butt Id not managed the somewhat larger penis up the butt just yet. I’m not sure what convinced me to tick the box but I did.
I was on a roll and grasping this porno lingo so I worked DP out to mean deep penetration. I’d heard the phrase before and took it to mean when a guy puts his wee wee really deep into you. The fact that they had put this down as an option made me think - What’s up with these girls? I love cock deep inside me, but some of them obviously don’t if you gotta ask me if I want to do it or not.

How silly did I feel the minute I walked out the office and realised DP was in fact double penetration. That’s where you have two guys. One in your pussy and one in your ass.

Ouch! I thought. That sounds abit ....tight! Oh hell you had the balls to say yes to the rest of it, you might as well go the whole hog and try that too. It’s not like I can’t change my mind if I don’t enjoy it.
I’m the type to feel like I’m missing out if I don’t try something at least once.