The journey begins

So going back to my first skin flick in which I encountered a lot of new experiences, the young girl who took my porn/lesbian cherry was in fact four years younger than me. It was strange surrendering myself to a minor (minor to me, she was still 18) for I had previously been either in charge of a large number of youngsters or the baby of the group. This was unusual for me.

As it turned out Jody was also to be my partner on my next shoot. This was another lesbian scene and only a few days later. We had been advised to travel down the night before the shoot. This is quite common especially if the producer has been badly stung by models no showing before. We aren’t paid by the hour so by ensuring models arrive ridiculously early they can effectively give themselves enough time to run a plan B should we not turn up. Call in another girl or revise the script, and by script I don’t mean words. There are no words in porn aside oh and ah.

So I turned up at Paddington station on time as usual and Jody again turned up late with about minus one second to board the train which was the last of the day. We talked on the journey and she told me about the male “studs” of the industry. She explained that she had only done one boy/girl shoot and it sounded like she had had her arm twisted to do it. She only wanted to do girl/girl jobs but her exception would be if she could work with the guy she showed me in a picture. He was a little too good looking and pumped up and apparently had a massive cock which was the only reason she would do another boy/girl scene. I listened intently after all I might be doing my first boy/girl film soon and a heads up on that wouldn’t go amiss. I’ve always been an enthusiastic learner. Eyes wide open and ears to the ground, always trying to pick up on any tit bit of knowledge that may someday help me out. Like a sponge soaking up every drop of information I can draw into me.

Jody shared her headphones with me and let me listen to Mariah Carey with her. She told me in her strong jordy accent to listen to the words on Honey, of which id never translated the sexual innuendo before. It’s strange I could understand Jody’s accent face to face but later when she called me on the phone I couldn’t make out one single word of her northern Newcastle accent and in my fondness of her didn’t have the heart to say, so just threw in the occasional “yes” or “no” when I thought it the right time.

We awoke the next morning and I jumped to it showering and getting myself prepared for the scene. It was to be a three girl scene. At breakfast I made Jody write down a list of contacts for me. I was eager now id made the decision to fuck for a living to make as much money from it as I could. With only a few days to my name in this business, my first ever self employed position, I already instinctively knew one of the biggest keys to success and that was to never assume work would come to me. You have to put yourself out there. People are lazy or busy. You have to put yourself in front of them or in the forefront of their mind.

Despite Jody’s consistent tardiness she had a marvellous memory and remembered all these people’s phone numbers and emails off the top of her head. Jody liked to smoke dope a lot too and that made it even more spectacular to witness her writing this little list of photographers and modelling websites.

So now I had a starting point. That little list took me on a very long journey and I don’t think that even half of the six or so names on the list ever booked me.

Condomania

The use of condoms in porn is rare.
Porn is a fantasy so why would we need reminding of all those nasty diseases that occur in the real world. That’s why we watch porn after all isn’t it?
I’ve met guys that love watching anal or oral porn as their girlfriends won’t do that with them. Watching condom free porn just helps remove the limits that get put on sex in the real world. Not to mention the fact it is a massive bonus to pornographers who can get away with making dirtier porn which is more saleable in an over saturated market.
You wouldn’t see cream pies (internal ejaculation) or bukkake (being ejaculated on facially in mass volume) if all porn were subject to the use of condoms. In fact it would make a lot of fetishes impossible to sell.
Some of the bigger companies in the US claim to be condom only studios. They have the most successfully marketed girls so they know people will still pay to see these beauties with or without condoms.


I had an email from a new porn girl the other day in which she states she uses condoms unlike 95% of performers and that she is annoyed at the level of producers and male performers that have a problem with that.


It appears that some UK producers deep down know there product is so weak that they irrationally fear the introduction of condoms will cause them commercial suicide. Basically that their poor sales will diminish so much further just for a condom sighting that they will go out of business.


Logic actually says that not using condoms is suicide!


Either that or they have an over inflated view of their work. “You wouldn’t find Chanel using poly viscose to make their latest haut couture darling. So I’m not using condoms in my latest erotic masterpiece”!
And as for the male performers. Well there is so much testosterone driven ego fighting to get out that the threat of having to put a barrier in front of it would probably cause them to self combust. To the guys a condom loses them bravado so they aren’t in a hurry to wrap up.


So the poor girls who are happy to use condoms are backed into a corner. They know that the work goes to the girls who will go bare back and risk themselves.
In that respect the porn business is a very degrading and exploitative one. It’s easy for the players to say “There’s no exploitation here. I’m not holding a gun to anyone’s head. I’m not making anyone do what they don’t want to” But think about it. You are! If you put £300 in anyone’s hand they would walk away with a smile on their face.
And in the same breath you want the government and the public to take you seriously. The same government that is spending thousands on campaigning to increase public awareness of STIs. The same public that is just starting to grasp the fact that condoms are a necessity in life now, not an option.


It does ruin the fantasy of porn (which is the whole basis of porn) but should we be romanticising sex in this day and age anyway? We are doing what young children do when they fear a monster. They think if they shut their eyes hard enough it will go away? Well news flash, this one aint going away no matter how long you walk around with your eyes shut. Stop running and start acting.
Porn is just showing its ignorance of a subject it should be and I believe is well educated on.
This will come back and bite us on the butt at some point. Viewers and non viewers alike are wising up to the risks and accepting the changes. They are starting to realise porn is showing them the biggest disrespect by not also accommodating this change. By being neglectful of their consumer’s welfare, by dumbing down the issue that others are fighting so hard to promote.
Do the people behind porn really think that by not promoting safe sex it will increase their sales? One thing’s for sure, it will offend and confuse its customers. One might argue that pornographers believe there consumers to be stupid.


Using condoms will not increase sales of porn but not using them may well start to cost sales. I think its carrot dangling time for porn. Stop hiding behind the false notion that condoms will stop people buying porn. Grow up and smell the coffee. The rest of the world has.

Regulation sex

The law and porn don’t mix well. It’s legal. As far as I’m aware it’s always been legal to make porn it was just illegal to sell it until around 1998 when films classified as a restricted 18 certificate by the British Board of Film Classification (the BBFC) were allowed to be sold only in licensed sex shops. The same is true of law today. Fortunately that law was passed before the major onset of the internet so you can get all the porn you like unclassified and uncensored on line.

Ask the police or the government what the law is for pornography and chances are they will have to find you someone who knows – they won’t!

A simple rule to follow when making porn is this. Rape is illegal – so don’t film it (faked or otherwise), sex with minors is illegal – so don’t film it (faked or otherwise). The same rule applies to anything illegal. Guns, drugs, public indecency, the lot. Some producers have much trouble getting their heads round this condition of sale. It’s simple really. Just common sense.

For some reason it’s ok to include this stuff in a Hollywood block buster, because we all know it’s made up, but in porn the BBFC won’t allow anything “illegal” even though porn is most probably the most farfetched and fantastical genre of all films. Maybe these people in authority believe, and possibly rightly so, that once we reach a state of arousal we can’t differentiate between fact and fiction. If not then it’s just a blatant prejudice to makers and watchers of porn.

Ner ner ner ner ner you have fun filming sex all day but we are going to cap your fun by not allowing you to express yourselves creatively above just having sex. That’s it, all you can do is fuck and you can’t have anything else!

My maiden voyage

My first stint in porn was in a lesbian role. We call this a girl/girl scene. It also involved having toys inserted up my back passage.

I clearly remember sitting in the office of the guy filming this episode of an adult satellite TV station series before the shoot with him testing out various sizes of butt plugs on me to decide what I could or could not take. He had a pack of three different sized butt plugs and started with the smallest one since id said I had never had any toys up my bum before. I’d had fingers and even a cock on a few occasions but to be honest the cocks didn’t get very far for very long. It was still too uncomfortable for me to enjoy anal with a large cock or on one occasion, one that was attached to someone to drunk and probably stoned to get hard enough to go up me.
It was a pretty pointless exercise and a classic case of exploiting someone new and eager to please. I don’t recall if we did get as far as the biggest plug, possibly due to the two small brandy miniatures that had been given me to help “loosen me up” for this test but apparently I passed and got the part.

It hadn’t particularly upset me that he was taking advantage of the situation and his authority over me. Life is full of people doing just that, it’s just some of us are blind to it. Sometimes you have to humour the abusers to get what and where you want to in life. I’m not really sure who was abusing who. Had he asked me to do something I had really not wanted to do then I would most certainly have walked away. If I wasn’t going to get something that I felt was of equal importance to me out of it then screw u.

So the next day I turned up to the set and met my co star. A cute young girl from Newcastle who was to become my first helping hand in the porn business. I don’t count the three agents I had applied to and joined. They don’t help models and performers. They do their job.
It was to be my first full on lesbian experience. Until then I had only ever kissed a girl my boyfriend had dared me to kiss one night in a bar. I didn’t know the girl and it was no more than a peck on the lips.

Little did I know that today would possibly mould my submissive side for the future.

It was explained to the northern girl who was 4 years junior to me that she was to take the lead and treat me gently as it was my the first time with a girl, first time I was using toys up my butt and indeed my first proper porn shoot. It was a big day for me. I was nervous but excited. I was glad she was told to be in charge. That way I would just copy whatever she did. I didn’t know how girls liked to be kissed or touched by other girls. Was it the same as being touched by a guy or was I supposed to do something else? I was suddenly back at school second guessing everything I was about to do because I’d never done it before. Not only that, I had to do it as if I was a pro. As if I was the most experienced and sexually confident woman in the world. At least when you’re at school if you get it wrong only you and the other person know and you’re forgiven due to your age and inexperience.

It wasn’t how I imagined it to be on set with a massive crew and loads of equipment. It was very much a one man band set up here. I thought that this probably was a one off and that other shoots would be all glossy with catering and makeup artists. I was soon to learn that I was wrong and 60% of shoots would be like this with the director and producer being the same person. Sound, lighting and camera are also taken care of by him. We shoot on one camera with a built in mic so no sound guy was needed. Lighting was 3 sets of Tungsten portable red heads set up on tripods in the corners of the room. Make up and wardrobe was down to me and catering, if you were lucky enough to be catered was a Texaco garage sandwich and bag of plain crisps (no strong flavours if you’re just about to snog someone else).

The cute jordy girl was late in notorious model/diva fashion. I on the other hand turned up on time which left a good few hours for me to be fondled and groped by the director/producer. I was actually starting to get board and pissed off thinking this girl isn’t going to show up, I’m not going to get paid and I’ve taken a day off work for this crap. The fact she was so late hadn’t helped my nerves either.

She showed up in the end just as I was beginning to think all was lost and I won’t forget her in a hurry either.