Big Sister

Jody became abit of a fixation in my head. She broke me into the industry and took my lesbian and anal flower. It’s no wonder I began to think I was in love with her. She was all I thought about for a few weeks. She was so sweet and helpful, kind of like a big sister to me. Could I be a closet lesbian?

I saw Jody one last time when I took a job performing on a webcam in Amsterdam. I was told id make £2000 for a fortnights work. I was actually worried about going for so long but was told if I went it had to be for 14 days. Certain people still didn’t know about my career change and might start to wonder where I’d gotten to for two weeks.

But £2000!!! That’s nearly double what I earnt some months in my old job.
All I had to do was masturbate on a webcam whilst talking dirty to the guys watching in a chat room linked to my webcam. There would be a whole load of other girls from the UK there too so I wouldn’t be alone.
I’d been told id work an 8 hour shift on my webcam and that the rest of the day was mine.

Yeah! Mine and everyone else’s who was watching me on the live voyeur cam feeds going about my business. The place where we did these cam shows was also where we lived for the two weeks. It was what is known as a voyeur house. Just like Big Brother where there are cameras everywhere watching you. It hadn’t really occurred to me that because of all these cameras I would actually be working 24 hours a day. Even when I was asleep id be working!

I tried to forget about the cameras in the toilets and It didn’t really bother me that there were cameras everywhere else to be honest. What swayed me into going ultimately though was the knowledge that Jody was already out there and if I got the next flight I could be there with her.

I arrived in Amsterdam with a girl booked from another UK agency and was welcomed into Holland with a freak heat wave. A Dutch guy who was staff at the voyeur house met us at the airport and drove us to our new home for the next two weeks.
I looked forward to seeing Jody again and any nerves went away when I knew that she would be there to yet again show me the ropes and take care of me.

Unfortunately when I arrived “my” Jody wasn’t there.

Porn Shoes

Firstly let me apologise for my recent disappearence. No i had not been shagged to death, it was purely the twits who host this blog allowing a 'robot' peg mark it as spam.

Anyway Im back on air now.

I remember the first time I laid eyes on porn shoes.
Stripper heels, platforms, spike heels, glass heels... call em what you like.
I called them tranny shoes. The only person id ever seen wear them was Ru Paul so I thought they were some part of a trannies wardrobe get up.
I’d never seen them in porn flicks before. Probably due to the fact I had only watched dated porn. Porn shoes were yet to be invented.
I remember seeing lots of different styles for sale in a street market in Bangkok on a trip to Thailand once and this just reaffirmed for me that trannies (and lady boys) wore them. I actually wanted to buy a pair. Something was drawing me to them. I stopped myself saying “What the heck for? Where would I wear them?” I wasn’t a porn star then.
I later realised strippers and adult models wore them when I saw every single girl in a copy of my house mates Playboy wearing them. I thought they looked sexy but kinda mad. Sort of like Barbie meets glam rock.
Now I have more pairs of porn shoes than I do normal heels. I have classic ones (if there is such a thing), silver ones, marabou ones, leg tie ones and even boots too. I have every colour possible. It has been known for me to turn up on set with one case for my clothes and another for my shoes. I pack a pair of shoes for each outfit I take. In fact I pick an outfit to go with the shoes usually.
I still have my first pair that I remember going out to buy after my first few shoots in some trash shop on Oxford Street. I wanted porn shoes like all the other girls so I got some classic strappy, black, clear plastic platform/heel ones. They look abit tatty now but they have been through everything with me so I daren’t replace them.
My favourite ones I call my Barbie shoes. My first ever Barbie doll had shoes just like these.
People say “How the hell do you totter around in those things?” and then I explain how they are actually dancers shoes (table and pole dancers that is) and that walking and standing around in them is a doddle compared to what those girls do in them.
It’s strange though, I can’t wear normal high heels for very long without suffering but these beauties I can wear for hours quite comfortably. Why is that? I once wore them out to a night club and didn’t moan once about my feet aching. I even hobbled down a cobbled street in them without falling over.
Note: it is NEVER acceptable to wear porn shoes except in porn. I was going out on a limb when I wore mine out and was with a bunch of 10 or so other models. Do not think like the poor girl I saw wearing them in Wimbledon shopping centre one Saturday afternoon that they are for normal people.
JUST DONT!